| To say the least... |
[Oct. 9th, 2005|11:03 pm] |
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| | Counting Crows- Accidentally In Love | ] |
My trip home was pretty.... fun. Despite me being so wasted on Friday night that i am still remembering things... for instance... spining around until I fell on my ass...throwing a beer bottle into the harbor... Walking a MILE to get picked up... Sitting in wet grass because I thought a car was going to hit me.. cutting my finger because I thought it was part of the lime... wearing a cowboy hat, then it disapeering? .. using the new ipod nano and loveing the shit out of it...(its amazing).. Singing VERY Loudly to music I love.. and some i didnt know the lyrics.. but still felt like screaming. Watching some random guy making fun of me while i tried to hold a conversation... crying more then humanly possible... seeing people I dont remember seeing.. and patching up an old friendship/relationship...that hopefully will continue and not end up like it has over and over again in the past...
In this I want to say I'm going to try not to be so manipulative, especially when I am drunk..
Next... Saturday was a lay low day... I didn't drink like everyone else at the party and I got to see how i was the night before... Wasnt that amazing.
ALL in ALL.. My weekend was good. Despite the fighting and then making up... I wont be home again until thanksgiving..maybe |
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[Oct. 6th, 2005|12:08 pm] |
IF YOU HIT A DOG WITH YOUR CAR AND YOU DONT STOP...I HOPE THE SAME THING HAPPENDS TO YOU.
People on tv are ridiculous. |
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| Procrastination at its best.. |
[Oct. 5th, 2005|11:05 pm] |
ARGGGGGG I hate tests.. okay so havent posted in awhile...
First off, if you are going to tell a story...GET THE FACTS RIGHT. It really sucks when you dont know what you're talking about, because you make yourself look stupid. So, listen better.. then if you are a repeater then repeat the right story.. K thats done..
Yes I have been going away a lot.. like every weekend.. why? Because I can.. because I have a boyfriend who is less then 2 hours away, and because i am active in my sorority. This weekend I am going home because Eddie is home from iraq until monday and because i get to see my bf and my parents. Big parties in PC !!!! Next weekend I am going to St. Augustine w/ my Little and tons of other sisters for a good retreat.
Also, as many of you know.. I HAVE THE BEST LITTLE EVER. I < 3 her and you will all meet her because she is awesome. In the near future I am going to take a weekend and go to the MIA w/ her. Because I can. : )
Last weekend Ross and I went to a pet store in search of a pug for my grandma because Maggie died and we are all sad. I found some cute puppies and I decided I want another. Seriously, puppies just might be cuter then babies. BUTTTTTTT i dont think I will get another one because Kloie would be very very very jealous. Not to mention kloie still thinks she is a puppy, weight 55lbs, so it might confuse her a bit.
Express is having their anual Fall sale.. I wish I still had a job, minus the whole working part.. I only bought 2 shirts because thats what my budget allowed. Hey if I have to go to port charlotte to party, I am going to look damn good.
Whats the point of having your own fridge when you only have one roomate? No really... I MIGHT understand it if you lived like upstairs.. and didnt want to walk down to get a drink.. or if you had more then 1 roomie.. but your room is like 20 FEET from the kitchen and you have a fridge HALF the size of the one we have...I'm not going to steal your beer... I have my own. This erks me.. I mean it adds like $50-60 on the utilities and I have to pay half of it.
On another note.. I need to call this trainer about riding lessons.. apparently, you have to have 3 lessons before you can show/be on the equestrian team. I think they just want to take my money!!! : (
K i think i may go back to studying now. Sorry for the RANTS. |
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| And the time is NOW |
[Sep. 5th, 2005|03:38 pm] |
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| |  hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Eddie Money-TAKE ME HOME TONIGHT | ] |
So my weekend was pretty awesome, despite the fact that I missed the football game (which still hasnt started yet, and I am sad not to be tailgating w/ my girlies..) But from that.. I guess its good I am home because the 'girlies' are in segregation mode and this makes me sad.. We all have such strong views and opinions over EVERYTHING... Especially when it comes to our high expectations for eachother. It's obviouse we're like this because we love eachother so much, and yes even some times we say a little too much to. I'm not sure if this is making much sense to anyone but myself but I see it like this.. We want the absolute best for ourselves and for the people we love, because whats the fun if its just one person who gets it all? Then you have no one to talk to, who feels the same way... then it gets confusing to be understood by others..ie When everyone but one of us has a great boyfriend... its hard to be on the same level with the one person who is 'left out so to speak, so we may push for them to be where we are, and that nothing else will be acceptable. (I'm saying we' because WE all do it). Or maybe everyone is single and only one person has a boyfriend, who is pretty amazing and we all see this... Does it make us a little upset that we can be single and free and party it up w/ all the single boys.. but to our one great friend who has the bf.. its not the same?!?1 Hopefully I am getting somewhere with this.. I'm not trying to say there is a right side to be on in this confrontational situation because all sides have valid points.. Which just means that, one person may have been overprotecting of friends, when the other saw it as an attempt to be controlling? My flat out point is... even if someone is trying to be controlling over another persons life, its because they care so deeply that they dont want to see that person hurt or failing in any aspect of life. So what is the right way of handling it all? Taking a break from eachother? We're all sensible people..There has got to be a better way around this...Don't see it as being "the better man, to apoligize first" thats cocky. If your hurt, say something...because I've realized that just telling someone else about it, may make it easier on yourself and conscience and help you get over it... but it wont help it from NOT happening again..Which will then just make you even more pissed. This will also help w/ the "shit talking"... because in reality we may say a few mean things behind anothers back.. but its not like we're bashing them in our conversation, we're just talking about what made us mad and upset, how they reacted and how we did.. We constantly get mad for hearing about what someone else said behind our back.. but when you think about it, they probably only said it because they were angry.. and we all know that angry talk is about as realistic as fighting some bitches at the club :) So I think this is all I wanted to say.. I'm not acusing anyone of being imature or unreasinable because how you feel is exactly that, it's up to you to let the other person know... because hearing it down the road in a month or two when you decide to patch things up, wont be the same. Some of us will only be here for another 2 years.. and even so, all of our work loads w/ school are getting harder. Nows the time when you have your friends and your fun times because down the road is when your really couting on them to be there. We're eachothers support system. OKAY I am done being sappy... :( Because this really does make me feel like an outsider, especially not being in tallahassee for the weekend.
ON OTHER NEWS.. @ home.. hehe... I got good quality time in w/ the bf for his 2 birthday dinners. One with his family and one with mine :) Not to mention I am going to Gville next weekend for his birthday. (Because it falls on thursday) Anyone need any bottles??? I am sure he is going to want to spend some time just being able to buy the alcohol. But what I have in the planning is a surprise and we all know he lurkes this so : X its a secret. If you have any good suggestions aim them to me. Kthnx.
I'm expecting COMMENTS!!!!!!!!! Love you all!!!!!!!! |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2005|02:45 pm] |
X the things you've done ......
(x) Slept all night in a bed with a person of the opposite sex
(x) Slept all night in a bed with a person of the same sex
(X) Slept for more than 12 hours
( ) Missed a week of school or more
( ) Put chapstick on more than 5 times in an 1 hour
(x) Kissed more than one person in a day
(x ) Kissed more than two people in a day
(x) Eaten a gummy worm
(x) Jumped on a trampoline
( x) Ridden a unicycle
(x) Done something special for someone else
( ) Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant
( ) Paid more than $50 for food at a fast food restaurant
(X) Got caught for cheating (i was in 5th grade)
(x) Talked on the phone while going to the bathroom
(X) Brushed your teeth while on the phone
( ) Worked at a fast food place
(x) Written a poem (For school)
(x) Randomly called people out of a phone book (pranks duh)
(X) Been on a yacht
( ) Put bananas in your cheerios
(X) Lied to a friend to make them feel better
(x ) Dated someone more than 4 years older than you
(x) Eaten frosting out of the original container
(x) Fallen in public
(x) Had your pants rip
( ) Recently had a PB&J sandwich
( ) Killed an animal, insects dont count
( X) Been prescribed to 3 or more medications by a doctor
(X) Wished you were an only child
(X) Used your friends razor
(X) Been unproud of a decision you made
(X ) Worked for a family member
(x) Been told you were too young
(x) Made out in a car
(X) Kissed a friend, then their best friend
(x) Gotten away with a lie to your parents
(X ) Been dumped the night before a dance and left without a date (HAHA 9th grade homecoming : Kris)
( ) Gone out with a person one of your parents set you up with
(x) Hate to admit you are wrong
(x) Ridden in a shopping cart in the grocery store (when I was little)
( ) Break danced in a Mini Mart
(x ) Went into a mini mart in socks
(X) Worn a tiara
( ) gone to church more than 3 times in a week
( ) Copied more than 30 CD's in a day
(x) Made a movie
( ) Dressed gothic
(X) Worn 5 or more layers of clothing (Tahoe trip..so cold! and Italy)
( ) Had a stalker
(X) Been to California
( ) Lived on a house boat
(x) Swam in clear blue water
(x) Sat in a doctors office with a friend (Does the ER count??)
( ) Ran across 6 lanes of traffic
(x ) Hit on a waiter/waitress (They hit on me first!)
(x) Taken pictures with a stranger
(x) Stayed in a hotel room with 3 other school mates
( ) Made a public speech
(x ) Been on cable television (I was on a WINK tv comercial in 5th grade)
(X) Put straws up your nose
(x ) Choreographed a dance (camp)
(x) Felt used
(x) Made a smoothie or milkshake
(x) Had fun at work/school
(X) Watched Desperate Housewives(loves it)
(x) Watched a movie so often you could quote every word
(x ) picked bellybutton lint and smelled it ....not by choice
( ) Listened to an old NSYNC or Backstreet Boys CD more than once |
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| Well well well... |
[Jun. 1st, 2005|11:47 pm] |
Look what I found! (My LJ) Lets sum up the past ugh, yeah past.. SOOOO I went to the ER twice last week, HOT! One for allergic reaction to who knows what and the other because i thought i was going to die, literally.. So I got hooked up to an IV for over an hour and then my bf picked me up.. wait thanks to tara's bf for taking me! So after.. we went to publix and I got steaks!!!! We cooked and acted gay.
I watched star wars this weekend...sooo GREAT!!!!! Best thing ever.. ( HEY LURKER!!!!!, I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS!) Okay so it was Star Wars...yeah enough. Then we got dinner and rented a movie and we're cute and you're jealous.
So this weekend was fun...the one coming up will be 10x better, white trash bash1!!!!!!! |
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[May. 23rd, 2005|12:50 pm] |
arggggggg so i have a redish rash all on my forearms and i want to kill myself. I just put caladryl on them and now I have pink splotches...wtf is wrogn with me?!?!?!?1 Maybe I am allergic to something/someone.. :)
Other then that, fun weekend now back to classes and test on friday :(
Went into my old work and I think I might start working again.. which means I wont get home till late, my feet will hurt, and I will smell like a mexican...How can this be a good thing? Well the money would be nice right now.
Blah thats all I have for now. |
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| me=wow! |
[May. 17th, 2005|09:01 pm] |
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| | Foo Fighters- Everlong | ] |
Okay so I am beyond gitty/happy/crazy... but I wont post about it, you'll just have to ask so you can understand my enthusiasm as I tell you all about it!
*kisses* |
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[May. 15th, 2005|09:27 pm] |
The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
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| Take it as you will |
[Apr. 30th, 2005|01:06 am] |
| [ | music |
| | Maroon 5- She will be loved | ] |
I wish i could put into words how I am feeling right now.. But I really can't. Just thinking makes my eyes water and goose bumps rise. Some times reality hits us a little harder then we'd ever expect. You cant prepare yourself for everything, but I know we all try.
Some people I don't get. Like I know how they think and what they want.. and then to see 180 from that it's just like... their idea of a puppet show. Pretending will get you no where in life and games eventually end.
What I actually learned from abnormal psych.:
Intimacy is not the intensity of emotion but by being fully known by another. |
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[Apr. 26th, 2005|09:37 pm] |
So my birthday was alright, not at good because of 2 exams but atleast I got lots of money from the familia and then beautiful roses from my boyfriend. :)
Other then that exam week has been hell, I hate exams :( Idol was awesome and House is on now, I am so happy that the black nig is no longer on the show. I can't wait to go home already and sleep and eat and ride Hildie, a horse.
Um thats about as exciting as I am getting for right now, I'll fix this later when i'm not hungry and needing to study! |
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| Why I hate the male species... |
[Apr. 18th, 2005|04:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dixie Chicks- I Can Love You Better | ] |
Okay so most of you now know that I am in a relationship!!!!!!!!!! So unexpected but such a good thing. So heres what I am going to bitch about. Friday night I was officially taken off the market,Then I get a phone call from Matt Demase...Who I pretty much try to not talk to but since he changed his number, when he called I didn't know who the F it was. Well he was all like blah blah blah.. and yeah, For those of you who know about the situation with how me and Matt were, You know it was pretty fucked up, and we stopped talking.. Well Then he messages me online Saturday night after I have drank 4 vodka drinks? Yeah about that.. and I just let him have it I guess... I was like "Look, you have a gf, I wont sleep with you, I have a bf, Please just kill yourself." and he asked if i was drinking and I said yes and thats why it was so easy for me to tell him to die. Then Robbie messages me online... SURPRISE... yeah I'm still drunk at that time and tell him, Look I have a bf now and we're never going to "be what we were"... Here is the really F'd up part, Robbie and I havent spoke since my freshman year and he made me mad because he didnt call me for a week so i stopped answering/responding to him after that.
SUNDAY MORNING: Matt messages me on aim saying "Hope Your Feeling Better ;) " WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?!? I WISHED DEATH UPON YOU!!!!!.... And I know I did this for a fact because My boyfriend was standing right there and told me I did. So uh yeah.. IT gets worse
MONDAY: I'm standing in my kitchen making soup from scratch (yay me) and my phone rings.. another number I don't recognize so i dont answer...Then it rings again.. I decide persistance is a bitch so i answer
Me: "Hello"
Him: "HEY"
Me: "WHo is this"
Him: "Uh, Christian"
Me "OH"
Mary"Who is that?"
Me: "Christian"
Mary: "WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO HIM?"
Yeah took the words right out of my head... So now we have Christian.. Whooooo, I met at a KA dinner, and then gets my sn off of Facebook (Lurker) and messages me. (This is all before spring break). So Having nice online conversations with eachother, good music intrests.. sounds like a nice guy... wait, nice wish. So Christian and I hang out once. He comes over we talk, sit around, he plays with Kloie, and then he leaves. It was kind of weird because both of us are really shy people towards those we don't really know. Well.. After that christian called me maybe like 3 times and stopped respondign to me on AIM. Which is fine I am a big girl and can handle rejection.
Well then I see Christian at the Kappa Sig party (Yeah weird again) and he calls me SHADDY!!!!!!!! F that.. I let him have it saying, "ME SHADY, YOU CANT EVEN CALL WHEN YOU SAY, I"LL CALL YOU BACK" So I walk off with Ross after being yelled at by a cop. Talk to him online the next day, apoligize if I was a bit forward but hey he deserved it.
So this was like 2 weeks ago.. Once again dont talk to him after that... Now he calls me while I am making soup (to bring the story back together).. So I kinda stop talking and blame it on my concentration for the celery I am cutting and he's like "Well Just call me when you're done making soup I guess"
and I was like "I'll think about it"
I think he was a little taken aback by that. Guess what, I thought about it and I'm not calling him back. It's a good thing when a guy pisses me off I delete their number out of my phone, then I just dont think about it. Which is why I never drunk dial!!! It's the number you memorize that gets you in trouble when your drinking and mad : FYI. So.. Moral of all of this... Do guys have some sort of Censor that goes off and says "SHE HAS A BOYFRIEND, NOW I AM INTERESTED?!?!" Because if they do.. Well that makes me want to become a surgeon so i can cut it out of their body. Girls.. I am sure I am not alone on this one, You know how it is and how F DAMN weird boys can be. Please tell me I am not the only one this happends to...
On another note, Awesome weekend time spent w/ the girls, YAY JESS came to visit and I now have a memory of all of their well special places. :) (Their hearts, DUh!) haha.
and ps. I hope Gainesville catches fire this summer :) And no Claire it's not because of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*~*~*~*~*~*EDIT*~*~*~*~*~*
Just wanted to add in that even those these dumb boys may call, Doesn't make me want them/want to talk to them. Nor were they ever significant in my life, so they wont be now.
Just in case you got the wrong idea. |
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[Apr. 12th, 2005|08:45 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Goo GOo Dolls- HEre is Gone | ] |
Does anyone else ever have to put on a good song to really see how you feel/react to it.. Like, put on the song, see who it brings to mind, because maybe you dont think about things through out the day or week until you hear a really really good song.
I am very partial to a lot of old songs from the 90's and what not including counting crows and goo goo dolls and eve 6 and ya you get the picture.. So when I hear those songs I am like ahhhh prosac I feel better. Is that weird? I think it is.
Where is this going? Theres really no point.. I am just being gay and stupid listening to music and being like ahhh high school/ middle school/ home! Okay so maybe not but hey it's fun to think about and then laugh I guess? |
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| What happend to your life |
[Apr. 11th, 2005|09:00 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Eve 6- Heres to the Night | ] |
My weekend was F in amazing. The best times are really just sitting around and laughing with eachother... include the drinks and it becomes the pg get-down. Friday night was ugh...what did we do friday?!?! Oh YEAH We all drank at my house and I drank almost a gallon of vodka and gatoraid (dont worry I finished the rest of it on sat night)... So then we went to Matt Lundy's, we being melissa, tara, ross and I. It was fun stuff. I took jello shots with Nick, was re-named Alissa due to some annoying boys... and then argued with melissa over me being single or not.. I didnt realize she was saying I wasnt because the guys who were askign were ugly.. I actually dont even remember them asking but ya it was fun and ross wet his pants...because melissa spilled his beer haha it was great.
Saturday we layed out and went swimming and then drank that night at Melissa's. It was eventfull. Much love to Chris for buying the booze. Ross and I KILLED a bottle of Jager, yes just the two of us. and I got sick and bounced back into things by drinking 2 more beers... Ross on the other hand drove us home and then got sick...very sick... :( I out drank you !!!!! MUAHAHAHHA you wont live this down.!!!! He lurks our LJ's
Soooo sunday we layed out and what not, ya! and then I went to a 2 and half hour sorority meeting. Arent those my favorite
haha on tv Steve Martin was talking to his daughter and was like "Don't forget to fasten your condom!...SEATBELT..I MEANT SEATBELT" Father of the Bride. So cute!!! my dad would just take out his gun :) |
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[Apr. 7th, 2005|10:09 pm] |
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| | Brand New- Last Chance to Loose Your Keys | ] |
Hmmm today was fun. Sleep, classes, shower.... hm ya thats about it :) Lauren wants me to go to Semi with her and eddie but the more I think about it the more I really dont want to go..not to mention the whole date situation..Lauren wants to hook me up w/ one of eddie's friends that I met at the kappa sig house... I think my night would be much more content drinking w/o having to worry about being disciplined for my actions by exec. So whats up for sat. night ya'll???? Tara and mary are in charge of find the party I will be in charge of getting us all wasted.
Katie wants me to go to her house for a party right now.. I think I am jsut going to cuddle up in my bed and watch tv because I dont want to start the weekend on thursday again. I gotta focus on going to class tomorrow... all of them!
later kiddies |
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| I love the 90's is on TV |
[Apr. 6th, 2005|06:08 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Dashboard Confessional- Again I go unnoticed | ] |
I think I make myself crazy because of the choices I make. I'm seriously digging myself into the biggest hole right now thats going to lead where? Oh ya, no where. Is that acceptable? Sure why not?!?! ugh. Theres always something bad waiting to jump out right after something really really good...ya know like somethings fall into place and your like omg yessss and then right around the corner theres the if factor...wait is it the if factor? Oh well it is today for this post. The point of this post.... sadly I always end up in these, where is this going/what next/whats going to happen when.... Yeah I read into things too far but it was in Cosmo last month, girls cant just have meaningless flings. AND if it's in cosmo, then duh it has to be true.
On another note... Some people are never going to be happy with themselves or with other people's decisions if it doesn't involve them.. to this I say, Get a life and please stop wasting your time bringing my name to your mouth. |
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| 10 things you may not know about me.. (I gave in) |
[Mar. 30th, 2005|05:54 pm] |
10) Every boyfriend I have ever had has at one point called me emotionless and that made me cry.
9) I'm scared shitless of what comes after college and where I'll go.
8) I've tried 2 kinds of drugs... 3 including alcohol
7) I had no friends in 6th grade because I was afraid to talk to people.
6) Up until 5th grade I went to a private school, with 4 people in my graduating class
5) I use to be obsessed with dirty dancing and made all my friends dance with me like how they did in the movie (I was 6)
4) I lied to my best friends in 9th grade and told them my first kiss was in middle school.. when really it was to Kris Norris in 9th.
3) I can cook
2) I use to be addicted to diet pills with ephedra
1) I cry atleast once a week over something stupid |
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[Mar. 30th, 2005|05:53 pm] |
If you read this,
even if I don't speak to you often,
you must post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad,
just so long as it happened.
Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you. |
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| ..I hear you in every song |
[Mar. 27th, 2005|09:38 pm] |
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This weekend was exactly what I needed... Minus the sick part right now.. but then again i didn't work today, first time I have ever called out of any job so maybe I needed to be sick. We'll start off with a shitty friday at work and then heading over to melissa's eventually to watch her and jess break out the table dancing,,, SHAKE WHATCHA MAMA GAVE YA WATERMELON!!! Ah so after a BLACK guy put a dollar down melissa's pants I felt too sober and had to leave.. Woke up and worked and then that night went out to eat w/ mel,jess, and tar. It was fun.. and then spending $80 on liquor to replace/drink up. BTW, I am so proud that me jess and ross killed a bottle of Jager AWESOME. It was good fun and then neighbors stopped over and then nick and andy and then they left to jump in the jacuzzi? With the black girls? Ya so we left and I drank hunch punch out of a cooler.. a lot of hunch punch actually. And then laughed while melissa yelled from the third story of Villa del Lago to these girls.."SLUTS!" " HOW ABOUT YOU PUT ON SOME CLOTHES" "GET A NEW VOICE" "YOU'RE UGLY". It was so hot. Then we ended up in the road and I had a decent drunk conversation and out of no where I'm told to turn around and there is a fat black girl running down the road w/ no shirt on. Classic, and of course Ross had to add in the "Looks like National Geographic" ewwwwww. Oh I just realized I chucked a baseball out of my window when we were leaving at someone's truck, so sorry!!!! Then went back to melissa's and drank water for a good 3 hours and watched old movies on tbs or something. Left her house around 6:00am came home slept woke up at 9 and called in sick to work because I have no voice at all.. Its pretty hot. Anyways I am off to go rent a movie with jess and tara. MUAHHH |
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